Meditation & Mindfulness

I am currently enrolled in a Buddhist Traditions course, and today I will be presenting my reflection on Thich Nhat Hanh’s book Old Path White Clouds. Such a beautiful, deep text! It was hard to choose one aspect to reflect on only four minutes. Below is my reflection along with the images from the power point I will share through my classmates. You might recognize these photographs from the slideshow I posted last year after I visited Deer Park Monastery.

In Old Path White Clouds, Thich Nhat Hanh masterfully discusses meditation, mindfulness, and other key concepts of Buddhism. In over five-hundred pages, he guides readers on a path with the Buddha, allowing for a deep experience in the reading of the text. Of the many elements presented in Old Path White Clouds, two key ideas stand out: meditation and mindfulness. Ultimately, these notions can be seen as two sides of the same coin. Meditation fosters mindfulness, and mindfulness cultivates meditation.

Utilizing the voice of the Buddha, Thich Nhat Hanh emphasizes the importance of meditation, which “will bring peace to your heart” (69), “nourish body and mind and provide the strength needed to pursue the path to enlightenment” (105). The deep importance and power of meditation is most aptly demonstrated in the Buddha’s attainment of Enlightenment. It is important to note that the Buddha was dedicated to meditation both before and after enlightenment. As the popular Zen proverb reminds us: “Before enlightenment, chop wood, carry water. After enlightenment, chop wood, carry water.” Enlightenment was pivotal in Siddhartha’s transformation to the Buddha, but it does not change the things he must do to continue nourishing his spiritual life and teach those around him.

Through Enlightenment, the Buddha found the answer to his quest for learning how to live in a world that contains suffering. In meditation, Buddha discovered that suffering comes from wrong thinking. It is through meditation and practices of mindfulness that one can overcome wrong thinking and see the reality of impermanence and inter-being, other important principles in Buddhism. The way to achieve both meditation and mindfulness is by bringing awareness to the present moment. This is an important ability because “Life can be found only in the present moment . . . Once you know how to return to the present moment, you will become awakened, and at that moment, you will find your true self” (163).

In an important passage on pages 514-515 in Old Path White Clouds, the Buddha offers ten ways that “happiness can be realized in this very life,” (514) including “[l]earn[ing] how to meditate in order to release sorrows and anxieties” (515). There is a very circular nature in the concepts presented by the Buddha. By being in the moment, one can experience life and one’s true self. By taking care of one’s self, one can take care of others. In tending to others, one is also tending to the self. By meditating, one learns how to be mindful. Through being mindful and focusing only on the present moment, one can move into meditation. All these elements work together in a powerful way that reciprocally aids the self, others and nature (which are not separate, as taught through the concept of inter-being): “By nourishing awareness in the present moment, you can avoid causing suffering to yourself and those around you. The way you look at others, your smile, and your small acts of caring can create happiness” (513). Mindfulness and meditation are keys to fostering and sharing happiness. Through this path of happiness, one also finds peace, understanding (of self and others), and acceptance (of suffering and impermanence).

What is truly wonderful about meditation and mindfulness is that they can be practiced on a daily basis and in any location. Furthermore, one does not have to be Buddhist in order to participate in these practices or benefit from them. They offer universal truths that can facilitate great change in everyone’s lives. Last year, I had the opportunity to attend two dharma talks by Thich Nhat Hanh and to join with many others in a guided meditation walk he led at Deer Park Monastery in Escondido, California. As I read Old Path White Clouds, I could hear his voice and feel the sense of peace that he so beautifully radiates. I see meditation and mindfulness as a symbiotic process that is having a powerful effect on my life.

And now I would like to leave you with a final quote from Old Path White Clouds:

“If you want to see the essence of a lotus flower, you must see the lotus present in all the dharmas normally thought of as non-lotus, such as the sun, pond water, clouds, mud, and heat. Only by looking in this way can we tear asunder the web of narrow views, the web of mental discrimination which creates the prisons of birth, death, here, there, existence, non-existence, defiled, immaculate, increasing and decreasing . . . reality in itself cannot be expressed by conceptual knowledge or by written and spoken language. Only the understanding which meditation brings can help us recognize the essence of reality” (466-467).

Teaching, Studying, Writing. Getting it Done.

It’s not the load that breaks you down, it’s the way you carry it.
- Lena Horne

I’ve always been quite good at time management, but this semester has been a struggle for me. The problem isn’t really how much I have on my plate but how strange my schedule is.  I teach an evening class Tuesdays and Thursdays and then get up super early for 7 a.m. classes on Wednesdays and Fridays.  I have the same class Monday, but at least I get to bed early on Sunday night. It’s not the worst schedule in the whole world, but it is the most challenging teaching schedule I’ve ever had. And because each day is so drastically different and some days don’t allow for quite enough sleep, I haven’t been able to settle into a good daily routine.  I would prefer morning classes every day or evening classes every day. Just some kind of consistency. Oh, and the day with the evening class is also a split day, as I am on campus earlier for an early afternoon class.  I really don’t have much right to complain. In this economic climate, I’m super lucky to be teaching at all.  Nonetheless, the day to day wackiness is getting to me. I’ve been making the mistake the last few weeks of trying to “catch up” on my grading.  But this is the same as collecting all the sand at the beach. It never ends. As soon as I finish one stack, another roles right in. Teachers (especially in English) are therefore never caught up until the semester is over and they turn in grades. And even then, you’re prepping for the next semester. This is definitely not meant as a complaint. I love my job. But this job does present an interesting way of looking at your workload because you’re never done. So, while I’ve been trying to “catch up” at work, I haven’t got as much done for my schooling as I should have. And when I focus on grading papers and wait to do my readings, this tends to result in 8-10 hour reading binges, which always wears down my brain.

So, here’s my three-step solution. It will be most effective for this crazy semester, and will continue to be effective until I complete my PhD program and my book.
Step 1: Though every day for this semester will continue to present a different schedule, I’m going to dedicate at least one hour to my studies every day. It doesn’t matter when, but at some point before, after, or between teaching classes, I will let my grading and prepping sit, and I will read for 60 minutes. This will prevent the crazy reading binges. And I’ll probably enjoy my reading more and retain more of it.
Step 2: I’m going to dedicate one day a week to my book. Maybe not even the whole day, but at least half a day. I’ve got two years to complete my manuscript, but I really need to be using that time, not waiting until the deadline gets closer. Having all this time is a blessing, and I need to take advantage of it. I’ve been working on ideas in my mind and taking notes from reading material, but I haven’t written a single word in months. My husband has started working on a podcast, which means he’s gone for at least half a day each weekend. That’s the time I’ll dedicate to some book-work, whether it means research or writing.
Step 3: The absolute key to surviving this teacher/student schedule: meditation. I was doing good for a little while with daily meditations, but now I’m failing to keep it in my routine. It just so happen that today is Zen Master Thich Nhat Hanh‘s birthday. On Facebook, the Plum Village Monastery posted that the best gift we can give him is the gift of our own practice. They asked us to post our “gifts.” I vowed to make meditation a part of my daily schedule. No matter what, I can always stop for at least a five minute meditation. And it is amazing how just five minutes can really help bring relaxation and a fresh perspective.

So that’s how I’ll be getting it all done. Things have been extra crazy the last couple weeks because I am looking for a teaching position to replace one of the positions I have right now. Also, my husband and I have been house hunting. He’s been a gem though doing all the footwork. All I’ve had to do is show up and look at houses and give my yay or nay. He’s been wonderful! Really, right now, I’m living the dream. Or, really, multiple dreams! I am greatly blessed, and as soon as I get back to meditation habit, I’ll enjoy everything even more! Working on staying mindful and being in the present moment is what has got me this far. No one said it was an easy practice, but it is certainly a necessary one!


Who Am I?

I’ve been participating in a 21-day meditation challenge on Deepak Chopra’s website. I will confess I got a few days behind, but now I’m back on track, working to make meditating a daily habit (which the 3-week challenge is supposed to help you do). I’ve really enjoyed the guided meditations so far. The one I listened to today focused on “Who am I?”, something the challenge has emphasized from the beginning is a good question to have going into any meditation. Leading up to this in yesterday’s meditation, David Ji walked us through a really neat process: recapitulation. It’s something you can do at the very end of the day in just five minutes. You go through your whole day in fast forward in your mind, taking in no sounds or emotions, just watching your actions. It’s a really neat activity, and one that I also hope to make habitual. It allows you to be the silent witness to your own life. And, as David said, “We make the most conscious choices when we witness our actions.” This activity was great preparation for today’s meditation that solely focused on the question “Who am I?”  The answer will constantly be in flux. It’s really a long list where sometimes you will feel things on the list aren’t you and you’ll want to cross them off, and sometimes you’ll be adding things. It’s good to keep the list running in your mind, taking inventory of who you are. So, I’m going to make that list for myself now, as it applies to me for today, and post that not because it will be something significant for you, but in hopes that it will encourage you to make your own list.

Who Am I?
teacher
wife
daughter
sister
friend
pet-owner
student
girl
woman
child
techie
geek
consumer
writer
American
planner
photographer
reader
observer
martial artist
walker
mythologist
tv-viewer
nature enthusiast
animal lover
believer